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Sometimes, you just plain tired of hearing people comments and remarks once they get to know that you are currently pursuing your study in English Linguistic & Literature courses. Some people, yes they do have a good perception with people like us but others simply underestimate us.  Kau pernah belajar bersungguh-sungguh, tanam cita tinggi-tinggi dan capai keputusan yang cemerlang tapi kau ada rasa kekurangan, seolah-olah kau tak rasa cukup puas dengan apa yang kau buat? itu lah apa yang aku rasa masa habis SPM. Dengan keputusan 10A 1B, mestilah kau akan pikir, apa lagi yang aku nak? kalau apply scholar, InsyaAllah ada keizinan mungkin akan dapat dan tentunya lagi baik pursue courses yang dikira 'bagus' dan 'hebat' macam Engineering, Medic, Architecture, Biotech dan seangkatan dengannya. tapi apesal aku still rasa aku ni loser?  N the fact yang kau merupakan seorang bekas pelajar SBP yang memang sudah ditanam dengan satu pemikiran yang kau dikira berjaya dengan be...

Masa kecik, saya selalu pasang angan angan. Saya selalu buat catitan kat kertas kertas tulis apa yang kononnya saya harap untuk capai masa masuk sekolah menengah, masuk universiti mahupun bila dah kerja dan besar nanti. Setiap kali saya tulis, saya akan rasa bersemangat sangat and it made my day. In fact sampai sekarang pon saya still buat senarai tu rasanya. Cuma tak sekerap dulu & tak sesemangat dulu.  Mungkin saya perlu kembali menulis angan angan dan impian saya semula. And this time, i'll go for it. Tak kesah la betapa kecilnya langkah yang saya buat untuk capai, at least i did something to make myself one step nearer to achieve those dreams of mine.  And what's more, from now one, saya akan start doing things I always wanted to do, things that I love. Things that I just been dreaming of but never really have the guts to make it real. This time, I'll take charge of myself, do some action, and create the reality for all my dreams.  And yeah, perhaps this time ...

I'm done with lectures. I'm done with the assignment. I'm done with the papers. I'm done with the busiest and most tiring semester ever. And to be honest I'm quite surprised I managed to get out of it alive & mentally sane *boo, exaggerate lebih*. Holiday come come to mamito! N helloooo sweet ol' home! Tho my house is quite a resemblance with that of Weasley family in Harry Potter but it's still warm & fuzzy. :3 Hence, by the time this post is up it's already 6th day of holiday and I'm sure I've done nothing good out of myself.  I can *confidently and with no doubt* assured you that by now, my daily time schedule sucks big time. It goes all upside down, twisted and knotted until I can't find any possible way to sort it back.  By the time this post is up too, InsyaAllah, if there's nothing wrong, I'm possibly already on my way to Kelantan fr a relative's wedding. So my dad have this idea that we might as well take this ...

P/S: this post had been written on 4th Jan.  Obviously it's intended as the concluding post fr 2011. B ut somehow I frgot to post it up. BHA-HA :p (I think this is one of just a few of my longest posts ever) I have not yet say a proper goodbye to 2011. *yeah, imma slow snail I know* But hey, there's nothing wrong with the lingering part. In fact, we always try as much to prolong good things that happened in our life. Though I must say, 2011 ain't filled with big achievements as much as I wanted to, it was a fulfilling one.  Here's some recap of the amazing path I've been through.. Personally, 2011 starts off with promising lights, having fallen in love with a man which I (at that time) feel, he would be the one to replace my first love but as we move on to later chapters of my life, I see that it's all just a dream. Like every other dream, when you woke up in the morning it's all gone. Let just stop it right there, shall we? I don't want to run much ...

heyho! ini post kedua buat tahun 2012. *wohoo wohoo* Sebenarnya ada terniat nak buat post to recap on 2011. but again, almaklumlah kalau dah namanya pemalas, gitulah jadinya. However, since it's 2012, saya berazam untuk buat jugak post fr 2011, a post to say proper goodbye to 2011 and a post to say proper hello to 2012 *as if penting sangat post post tu ye dak*. Well, as long as it's important to me, nothing else really matter that much.  Oleh sebab sekarang ni tengah musim exam, terpaksalah saya postpone semua blog post yang mungkin memerlukan banyak keringat. Since one of my resolution is to improve my outlook, blog better, add up more photos on each post, write more to inspire & to trigger those who may come across my blog to live a better life, jadi nya post akan datang2 mungkin akan lebih fulfilling dari sekarang dan yang sebelumnya.  Anyway I came across 365 days blogging challenge & some other cool websites that truly inspire me. Tho I may not write everyda...

Be Near Me   by  Faiz Ahmed Faiz translated by Naomi Lazard Be near me now, My tormenter, my love, be near me— At this hour when night comes down, When, having drunk from the gash of sunset, darkness comes With the balm of musk in its hands, its diamond lancets, When it comes with cries of lamentation,                                              with laughter with songs; Its blue-gray anklets of pain clinking with every step. At this hour when hearts, deep in their hiding places, Have begun to hope once more, when they start their vigil For hands still enfolded in sleeves; When wine being poured makes the sound                        ...