.kiko kiki lala.

we lose.  we lose. yes, we did. accept it, we did. embrace it, we did. but not enough to put a stop . not enough to crush us to bits. for we, are united.  we, are immortal.  we, are the red devil. we'll never know how to die. we'll never know when to surrender. we'll just keep close together. even when the whole world is against us . we're growing stronger. next season, with better game. gloryglorymanunited. :')

at this time, all i can say is that i miss you.  so much.  but i know the drill. i understand things had been hard for you.  so, i'll just wait and pray for things to get better for you.   ♥ i miss the old days when we would use the snail mail to keep in touch with distant friends. receiving letters from them give you a pleasant warm feelings. replying them, waiting them to reply back. the excitement of it couldn't be felt anymore, now that we have all the technologies for faster communication. remember the old times when  people would write each other love letters filled with sweet and beautiful words that change even a plain person into wonderful poet? how beautiful love makes us do.  i wish we would write love letter to each other sometimes. even our distance is just within a few walks away, and we can even give each other a call to say "i miss you", i wish to do it all the same. i wish to do it with you.  ♥ love  ♥ , ika.

Dear, please please please come to me so that i won't be alone in this dark dark world. i'm afraid, i won't survive in it. i'm afraid, i'll get lost in it. i'm afraid really. i'm so damn afraid.

Ya, dalam masa dua minggu sahaja, dah habes duit saya beli buku. ini lah salah satu keburukan cuti sem, pantang keluar, terjumpa kedai buku, pergi masok, dan beli puas puas.  lagi lagi ade KL book fair ni. rosak rosak.  tapi sejak saya jumpa Big Bad Wolf Book Sale (BBW) saya dah tak layan dah awak KL book fair. kalau peminat novel Bahasa Melayu takpe lah, pergi bookfair untung la jugak. tapi kalau buku Bahasa Inggeris memang tak berapa berbaloi. MPH discount 10% je n penguins punya booth paling tinggi pon dicount 40% itu pon kebanyakan buku discount takat 30% je. maaflah ye, tapi sape suruh awak punya discount tak sebanyak BBW. BBW satu buku pon rm8 tau.   tapi discount sikit pon, tetap jugak beli kan kan. haish.  ni buku yang saya beli kat Book Fair haritu. 4 books from Mitch Albom and the last book in Harry Potter series a few days earlier, saya ada beli one book from MPH bookstores, kat Midvalley, since buku ini dapat offer discount sempena menyambut 105years MPH anniver

if i could repeat this moment. i don't mind do it again for hundred times.  being a part of something,  the never ending practices spiced up with lots of jokes,  getting to know new people & get along with them, putting your mind & soul to the character you play, working your sweat out for the sake of the team, feel the adrenaline once on stage, embracing the energy from the audience, laugh out loud after all of it was done. THIS. . . . . this is one thing that i wish i'll never be separated from.

dear future husband,  if you wish to give me a wedding gift once we get married, instead of going to foreign places, staying at luxury hotel, or relaxing in some cool resort,  how about we do something different instead?  how about we watch a football match? a real football match, like the final leg of UEFA Champion league or the final game of UEFA EURO 20**, or perhaps any game on the world cup?  imagine the feeling the adrenaline rush and the feelings of being a part of the cheering crowd while watching the greatest game in football history together. that would be wicked aite?   anyway, just to let you know, i hope you would love football too as much as i do so that we can have late night cuddling together while watching the Red Devils games. or, if you are a fan of other team like say, Arsenal, we might as well watch the game too. If we are rooting for opposing team, it would be much fun, fooling and mocking each other teams.  but if, you aren't that much a fan of footbal