.kiko kiki lala.

I wasted so many things this Ramadhan Can I cry? I'm just hoping that from now on I'll be better than yesterday.

"Your relationship with Allah is the most important than anything in this world because you know for sure that's the only relationship that last forever"

"‎Akan datang kepada manusia tahun-tahun yang penuh dengan penipuan . Pada waktu itu orang yang berdusta dikatakan benar , dan orang yang benar dikatakan berdusta. Orang khianat akan disuruh memegang amanah , dan orang yang amanah dikatakan pengkhianat, dan yang berpeluang bercakap hanyalah golongan ‘Ruwaibidhah’. Sahabat bertanya, apakah Ruwaibidhah wahai Rasulullah? Nabi menjawab, orang bodoh yang bercakap mengenai urusan orang ramai " MasyaAllah. Ain't we realise that this is currently happening around us? And the number of people who falls under Ruwaibidhah categories is growing. Surely we don't want to be one of these people? Let us pray to Allah.  Anyway, I am very grateful that many of my friends on Facebook keep posting religious & refreshing statuses regarding Islam & Ramadhan. I love this whole new spirit people had during Ramadhan. And for those who keep my spiritual well-being refreshed with great quotations & tazkirah as constant reminder ...

sumpah aku penat. penat sampaikan mahu berhenti. apa kesudahannya ini? apa yang kita lalui ini? satu keindahan? satu kebahagiaan? satu kegembiraan? atau.. satu kepahitan? satu kesakitan? satu kepedihan? hati saya penat lah awak. izinkan saya berehat dulu. kalau ada jodoh tak kemana.

It was 18th of Ramadhan already. 18 days had passed as swiftly as morning breeze that brushed upon your cheeks. How times seems running so fast and how much important things was left undone, wasted for something petty.  18 days and I look back on how much , no how little I have achieved on this Holy Month. I'd say if we, start of our life with 100 points and this points are the ones which determined whether we passed to enter Jannah or not. In life, points are added and subtracted, humans are judged by how many points left by the end of his/her life. What if death comes calling for time out, what was left of my points? Will I pass this ultimate test? If wealth is measured by our Iman & devotions, I'm sure I'm in the state of poverty. It seems to me that I've been lost, blinded by the blinding lights of the worldly things unable to see clearly the beautiful rays of the hereafter.  How I wish I'd do more. I wish I am richer in terms of iman & devotions....

..cause they changes your mood, your whole perspective or something. But yes, its good. And hence, I would be changing my blog outlook soon enough, just so to improve my whole spirit towards changing, towards improvement & maturity. But of course, I'll start the blog renovation only after I settle things down with my room business - new paint, tidying up & perhaps some additional touch-ups n deco fr the room. Oh, btw, I'm currently in the project of spring cleaning my life . That's explain why I'm so triggered to make some new changes on my room & blog. It's time to get rid of all the excess baggage of negativity out from you and embrace a fresh new ambience. Well, it's Ramadhan right? Besides doing devotions and all, we can also do some spring cleaning, or a self post mortem of what you've achieved & done so far. It'll be good for us. :) So, what are we waiting fr? Let's spring cleaning!

kau tahu apa yang aku rasa? kau tahu? kau tahu apa yang tersurat di sisi hati aku yang rapuh ini? kau tahu apa yang aku fikirkan di minda kerdil lagi jahil ini? tahu? tahu?! jangan kau perkatakan apa-apa tentang aku,   jika kau hanya lihat zahirnya dahulu. jangan kau bawa cerita-cerita palsu, jika cetek sahaja yang kau tahu. diamkan sahaja mulut itu, jika tiada baik yang mampu kau suarakan! tutupkan sahaja mata itu, jika tiada indah yang mampu kau lihatkan! kau tidak tahu aku, kau tidak tahu sebenar-benarnya aku. p/s: ini puisi aku yang pertama dalam Bahasa Melayu. harap lepas ni dapat buat lagi banyak puisi dalam bahasa ibunda.