096: Embracing mess.
Well, hello there. It's been a while. It feels like meeting an old friend.
I should penned this somewhere. Somewhere that I might come across someday.
I tend to forget things. My mind is a mess, cluttered with unnecessary thoughts. I don't know what went wrong really but it's becoming a mess now. There are two basis for this circumstances. Number one: That's what happen to everyone when you grow up; you're mind becomes so cluttered you don't even know where to begin with. Or number two: I tend to bottled things up instead of writing it down. I don't know how to keep reminding myself again and again or even to find the time to do it but I really think writing things down helps. Even more so, I think it's becoming more important now that I've grown up and have much to say but kept it all in my mind.
Oh, by the way, hello adulthood! I am now a working adult. Graduated and about to leave my mark on this work (yeah, right). I must say that working life is hell if you stuck in a job you hate. In the midst of not writing about any updates or whatsoever about my life, I'd done a part time job during my last year of undergrad, graduated, get a permanent job while keeping up my part time job, get married (HELL YEAH!) & quit my first full time job because I hate it and get a new job (which is an NGO! Wohooo! Jump off the cliff due to excitement!!).
I really wish I could write it all down in slower pace, with more details and stuff so that my future generation could read it later but now, it seems a bit too overwhelming to write up posts on everything that's happening. Anyhow, I promise myself to keep writing. I want to get back to writing things down on a diary, on this blog or anywhere. In fact, I will start a new blog soon (I have been thinking about it for few years now). A less personal blog where I can discuss more on serious matter - my thoughts on issue I considered important, review on books, inspirations and more. I'm also thinking of a blog where I can write about Islam or at least what I think of the beauty of my religion is. But that's probably will not happen in near future (but I will keep it in my mind).
If I were to become a writer cum activist who inspire and empower people (HAHA, yeah right), I need to start doing something now. That is to start writing seriously in a medium where I can reach the masses and to work on a non-profit organisation so that I can gain as many experience and contacts before working on my own cause.
Yet from now on, I will keep this blog posted (And the other blog when I finalised all my thoughts and ideas). As you can see now, I've been jumping from one topic to another in just a matter of paragraphs *sighs*. Well, never mind. I don't want to re-write.
p/s: I guess this is my first post for 2015 (wow! see how dusty this blog is?), so....HELLO 2015! I'm about passed a quarter of the year. Looking forward for the next quarter!