.kiko kiki lala.

thanks for making me realize who i am, who i was. truly thanks. i had soo long left the person i used to be. the one i adore, and people adore so much. the one people hate so much because they can't bear the fact that they can't be me. the one people fear and look with envy, for i am strong, untouchable, yet subtle and feminine. the one i must consider, though how much i want to deny it, as the real me. the real me that is hidden deep beneath the shadows of unforgotten memories. and i never thought u would be the one digging for me. i had truly underestimate u. u just know me for three years, but you already surpass everyone else that know me more than you did. i would have known. because the first time i ever saw you, even i didn't know u, i felt something that is within you which is within me, too. but too fool am i to deny such an inevitable fact. too fool am i to be locked in a fake feeling that i created by my own unintelligent self. i suffered for false dignit...

. tahniah. .saya PONTENG kesemua kelas saya pada hari ini. *sebut betul2, SEMUA* .hebat kan?. .terima kasih kepada emosi yang tak stabil. *konon emo* .inilah contoh pelajar cemerlang. haha. 1. saya tak dapat fokus study n stress.  *akibatnya sy tak jawab exam dengan khusyu' 2. saya bergaduh dengan seseorang.  *akibatnya saya terpaksa mencari jalan penyelesaian n menangis tak henti2. 3. kasut crocs kesayangan saya hilang dicuri orang. *akibatnya, kecomelan sya berkurg sebyk 1% dan saya berasa sungguh geram, kurg lg 1% kecomelan* (sy dan abg sy sedang mempoyo mnayang kasut) [ PENGUMUMAN PENTING : saya BENCI orang yang curi or konon terambil kasut comel saya tu] .saya tahu beliau sungguh jeles melihat kecomelan kasut crocs saya berbanding kasut crocs laen kerana kasut saya ade patung hantu yang comel tu. .denga ni culprit, i will NEVER ever forgive u. .saya harap kaki anda berCAGU dan lebih teruk lg, kne pnyakit kaki yg bahaya smpai kne potong jari2 kaki anda yang B...

my IRK lecturer, madam Isfadiah once said in our class, dat we will find our love sooner or later. but for the mean time, even if u had find one, it not a proper time for u to involve in such relationship. "if you love somebody n u noe dat somebody loves u too, believe in ur heart n ur God, if ur fate is to be with dat somebody, den God will bring us to dat somebody in His own way" i noe it is so sudden, but this thing had been bugging me. N i had been hesitating for quite a long time, n so i believe this is time. i've made my decision, i believe dat God only give what is best for us, InsyaAllah. .thanks for the memories. .xoxo.

dear enchik belog, i think i am too obsess membaca buku english skrg. betul. rasanye abang dan kakak librarian kat cfs iium nilai tu da busan agak nye melihat kehadiran saya meminjam, merenew dan memulangkan buku. haha. oh, sempena cuti seminggu niyh saya da pinjam 3 buku kat library tu. 1. smoke and mirrors by neil gaiman 2. the great fire by shirley hazzard 3. bag of bones by stephen king dan juga buku cik aan yg saya pinjam hari tu ade lg satu yang belum habis baca lagi 1. howl's moving castle by diana wayne jones dan buku2 little black dress book cik damia yang dah berkurun saya pinjam tapi tak terusik sedikit pon. 1. perfect image by marisa heath 2. falling out of fashion by karen yampolsky buku frum aina utk bmw research: 1. night by elie wiesel. (pasal the holocaust) oh ya. saya baru habes baca buku pudarnya pesona cleopatra by habiburrahman el shirazy. sangat mengharu kan. saya habeskan ms otw salam tren frum nilai to sentul. buku tu nipis je. p/s : ade ...

saya rindu umi saya, puan sri salmah saidon. saya rindu saya. tuan sri hanafi@hanipiah othman. saya rindu abang2 saya, encik firdaus dan encik husni. saya rindu adek3 saya, encik muhsin, encik husaini dan cik soleha. saya rindu arwah kucing saya, si toci. saya rindu rumah saya. walaupun kecik utk kami yg besa. tpy beliau tetp hebat. saya rindu encik ahmad syaufik b. ahmad asri. *jum kawen sekarang n lari ke old trafford. kalau tak mampu, mari kite rompak bank negara supaya dapat duit byk2. bia tasnim pon tak dpt duit biasiswa beliau* saya rindu kekasih lebian saya, anis firdaus zahira bt. ismail. *sombong gile anda dengan saya sekarang. tau la da ade braces baru. tak bagi tahu ak pon. kaw memg cepat lupe kawan ahh. c):* saya rindu rakan sekolah saya, nadirah babji shalina md. rani raihan suzitot damia syafiqah *ini tak berapa. tiap2 hari menghadap muka beliau* nik syuod shaenga diha pah fatin qatrun aliaa maisara nabila oke, klau na senaraikan memg smpy...

.hahahahhhahhahahhaha. .hihihihihihihihihihi. .hohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohoho. .hhehhehhehhehehe. .huhuhuhuhu. .kekkekekekekkeke. .muahahahahhha. .heee~. .oke, cukup tu. .nampaknya. .saya sudah kembali normal.

dear enchik belog, if i had the strength n the courage. i'll face him n say. dear, how could you did all those things to me? why do you let my tears fall so easily? why don't you stop it by saying something sweet and nice? don't you know that i was hurt? don't you know you are the reasons behind those ugly tears of mine? i give u my heart, i give you my all. but all that you did was broke it down into pieces.